36 Weeks Pregnant and Pissed Off

I never understood then why fully pregnant women acted so pissy sometimes. I saw a re-run of Friends one time and Rachel was so pissed because she wasn't giving birth yet.

I'm feeling that right now.

I’m so irritable right now that if I let myself, I would bite the heads off people. There are times when I just want to be left alone to mope about when I will finally see my baby in person and just lie down in bed because of all the pain that I'm feeling right now, in my legs, in my ribs, and in my chest. Most of the time, I feel like crying because of the fact that I still have to get up from my bed and work, or go somewhere. I'm also very frustrated at the fact that I can't just stop working. I have to work until the minute I give birth. It sucks. I should be able to do what I want, after all, I'm 9 months pregnant! But alas, the real world beckons and I have no right to do what I want.

Unfortunately, in the spirit of being nice, I avoid acting like a brat, even if I so desperately want and deserve to.

I also worry about how things will be after I give birth --- will I be able to leave my baby to work again? Do I even know how to take care of a little infant?

... and last but not least....

Will I see my baby again???

My baby's grandparents are really excited and going nuts over the baby that it's making me really concerned that I won't even be able to be with my baby as much as I want. Anyway, I'm still the mom, I'm the one who's about to go into labor, I'm the one who carried the baby for 9 agonizing but happy months. I decide where the baby stays. (Sorry Mom, I know she's your first grandchild, but I really really really really really really really want to be with my baby all the time.)

So many thoughts are going on in my head right now that I really can't think straight. Especially with this stabbing rib pain, I really can't think straight. But what's clear to me is that I want to be with my baby all the time.