36 Weeks Pregnant and Pissed Off

I never understood then why fully pregnant women acted so pissy sometimes. I saw a re-run of Friends one time and Rachel was so pissed because she wasn't giving birth yet.

I'm feeling that right now.

I’m so irritable right now that if I let myself, I would bite the heads off people. There are times when I just want to be left alone to mope about when I will finally see my baby in person and just lie down in bed because of all the pain that I'm feeling right now, in my legs, in my ribs, and in my chest. Most of the time, I feel like crying because of the fact that I still have to get up from my bed and work, or go somewhere. I'm also very frustrated at the fact that I can't just stop working. I have to work until the minute I give birth. It sucks. I should be able to do what I want, after all, I'm 9 months pregnant! But alas, the real world beckons and I have no right to do what I want.

Unfortunately, in the spirit of being nice, I avoid acting like a brat, even if I so desperately want and deserve to.

I also worry about how things will be after I give birth --- will I be able to leave my baby to work again? Do I even know how to take care of a little infant?

... and last but not least....

Will I see my baby again???

My baby's grandparents are really excited and going nuts over the baby that it's making me really concerned that I won't even be able to be with my baby as much as I want. Anyway, I'm still the mom, I'm the one who's about to go into labor, I'm the one who carried the baby for 9 agonizing but happy months. I decide where the baby stays. (Sorry Mom, I know she's your first grandchild, but I really really really really really really really want to be with my baby all the time.)

So many thoughts are going on in my head right now that I really can't think straight. Especially with this stabbing rib pain, I really can't think straight. But what's clear to me is that I want to be with my baby all the time.

XL Baby

I just wanted to share with you what happened yesterday during my regular check up.

I’m now in my 35th week, so we went to see the doctor yesteday so she can check the baby’s position, and to check if my cervix is opening up.

So far, the baby’s position is still high, and my cervix is still as it was. The baby’s not coming out any time soon, which is good, because she’s only 35 weeks. The doctor says the baby is still not considered mature until she’s 37 weeks old, although personally, I prefer that the baby come out in my 38th week because her lungs would be fully mature by then. The good news also is that the baby’s head is in position. Looks like I can deliver the baby normally, but of course, as with all births, we still can't tell yet when she'll come out.

During the ultrasound, we were so surprised to see that the baby is has become very large for her gestational age. Using her measurements as basis, the baby should be about 39 weeks and 6 days by now. Hahaha. My doctor was really shocked to see how big our baby’s grown.

Our baby’s estimated weight is now 6.5 lbs. My doctor says that the baby will now be gaining about 200 grams a week, so that means by my 40th week, the baby will be around 8.5 lbs!!! What a huge little girl! You see, this is a little unusual for Filipinos because Pinoy babies are usually born with weights of around 6 to 7 lbs. But of course, this is no surprise because Baby Elyse's dad and I are not your average Pinoy folks (my hubby's 6 feet tall, I'm 5'7").

Things I Learned From Horror Movies (Part I)

Avoid small, cheap motels at all cost.

After watching Psycho, people should have avoided staying in cheap motels, but nooo... they still do.

I don't know what people like in cheap motels, there's always a good hotel somewhere, but they still choose to stay in cheap motels! Even Jennifer Aniston's movie DERAILED got me thinking twice about staying in cheap motels. I don't want to get screwed over by that french dude who is also starring in the Ocean's Thirteen movie.

Then I saw the movie Vacancy starring Kate Beckinsale (my husband's crush) and Luke Wilson. After it, it made me even more cautious about even looking at cheap motels. I don't want to die.

Stay away from Slovakia.

If you want to lose your limbs to a sadistic, apron-wearing, bulldog tattoo-toting club, stay in a small hostel in Slovakia. Truly the promise of sex with beautiful women and men will get you thinking, but there are clearly other safer places to seek sex.

After all, how can you enjoy sex if you don't have your pee pee anymore?

(Watch Hostel part I, it's a true classic. It's part of my horror movies collection and it's truly a gem! My collection won't be complete without it)

Don't ever go camping, ever.


Why give up the luxury of your own bed? Why let the mosquitoes bite your ass? Why lose the air conditioning?


Why go camping in the middle of nowhere? Nobody's there... or so you think!

If there's anything I've learned from horror movies, its to avoid going camping at all costs! First of all, I don't want to get raped by deformed, sadistic creatures who live inside of hills a-la The Hills Have Eyes. I've seen Paris Hilton die too in House of Wax, I don't want to end up skewered. I also don't want to end up being meat for a family of deformed (what is up with America? Why the deformities?) men who live in the middle of nowhere like what happened to the people in Wrong Turn.

Don't you EVER EVER EVER mess with the Japanese

I just saw the movie Shutter (American version -- it sucks, the original, Thai version is still waaaayy better. They skipped too many scary scenes. The director should be ashamed! He let his ego get in the way!) and it pays to listen to my warning.

Don't you ever ever ever mess with the Japanese. They are spiritually powerful, they are perennial, and they will catch you wherever you are, even long after they die.

I don't want to end up in a mental institution like Joshua Jackson, or Sarah Michelle Gellar in the Grudge. I don't want to fall from a building and I don't want a white-faced, long-haired, screaming woman following me around wherever I go.

Not Feeling OK

I don't feel like my usual gorgeous self today. Even my make up doesn't look well at all today. I don't know why. Maybe it was the 6:00 AM text message I received about work, maybe it's the succeeding texts and calls since... I just feel so drained and it's just 10:40 AM. I really really really want to take my maternity leave now, but I think it would be a waste. I'd rather spend time with my baby than spend time with myself and avoid stress.

Pregnancy = Pain

Now in my 34th week of pregnancy, I feel even more pain than ever, especially in my legs. It was two weeks ago when I started noticing a giant varicose vein growing in my upper left thigh, near the groin area. I thought this was the most pain that I would experience, but I was wrong. When I woke up this morning, I started feeling some aches and pains around my abdominal area and they're not contractions. I just have them everytime I try to walk around. This is bad for me because I still have to continue working until I'm in my 36th or 37th week (I have no vacation leaves left, and I don't want to take my maternity leave too early because I want to spend more time with my baby girl) so I guess I have to be stronger and endure.

I'll see my doctor on Monday to assess whether I could deliver normally or not. I've spoken with my resident psychic and she said I had an 80% chance of delivering via C-Section. I kind of believe what my psychic friend says because she predicted I would find out that I was pregnant in March (she said this October of last year), then she predicted my baby's gender, and also predicted that I would have a hard pregnancy, and so on and so on. She's 80+ years old, very legit, she doesn't charge, she still works as our museum consultant here in Clark, and I'm not the only person she's used her "powers" on. She's never been wrong.

About the hard pregnancy, well, I haven't talked about this much yet, but I'll tell you now. In my third month, I started bleeding and was advised to rest for a month to prevent miscarriage. Then in my 6th month, I almost had a premature delivery. What was the common cause? STRESS. So I really really really advise all pregnant women out there to try to do relaxing stuff, even when at work.

What I do now is listen to my favorite music and sometimes don't show up for work when I know that something really stressful is coming. Hehehe.